Requiem of the Masochist 3.0

   This is the third and final update for the challenge post saga. After two progress posts, and writing the actual paper, it is now time to take a step back to reflect on everything that has happened.

   Writing about the Gothic was interesting to say the least. This is the first time I have done so, with the specific goal of "Gothic" in mind. However, since I was able to choose the topic, I did not have as difficult of a time, because I was able to pull from my own experiences, a place I am very familiar and comfortable with.

   The topic of my paper was, Glamorize Your Gothic: write about an event or experience in your life that you feel represents the Gothic. For my paper, I had to first write a narrative and then a response to my narrative, describing how it relates to the Gothic. In my perspective, the most Gothic of things happen in the present, because all the emotions are fresh and new. Anything from the past, while potent at the time, has had time to dull the familiarity of the senses. So my story, which started my freshman year of college, has caught up to my present allowing me to feel at the moment what is currently going on.

   There is also a touch of irony to my story. Had the set of events happened differently, it would have been more appropriate for a fairy tale, but love given does not always result in love returned. It was truly an accident, not one I planned or was consciously aware of. But like all "good" stories, my life hit a plot twist and I woke up one morning knowing that sometime between going to bed and waking up that I had fallen for one of my friends.

   Writing a narrative about my life was a nice change of pace. It gave me the chance to use all the I's I wanted. So many I's... I I I IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII- borderline too many. In the future, I'll stick with the two eyes I was born with.

   I used to think Love was the antidote to Gothic, but maybe only True Love is. Love by itself, is just as susceptible as everything else is for being tied into the Gothic. Although, as I state in my story, sometimes the Gothic is not as bad as its reputation. For example, I have chosen it over the alternative. -I came very close to saying I did not learn much about the Gothic from this paper, in particular, but I just thought of something I think is important with regards to the Gothic.- The Gothic is not inherently bad. The Gothic's reputation proceeds it, and people assume it is bad because of what it stands for: blood, darkness, fear, etc. However, we as humans need blood to survive, darkness is the soothing time of the day most people go to sleep and rest their bodies, and fear is a body's response that helps people avoid potentially dangerous situations. The Gothic is not inherently bad, it is just a neutral entity that molds to each new situation, "good" or "bad".