Small Fish in a Big Swamp: Secret of the Gothic 2.0

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Secret of the Gothic 2.0

TO: Mikayla Beaudrie, ENC1101 Teacher

FROM: Mark Tracz

DATE: June 27, 2014

SUBJECT: Challenge Check-in #2

Reflecting on what I am currently going through and connecting it back to the Gothic, has only reinforced the bleak nature of my situation- something I did not think was further possible. When I think back to the days before this all started, I remember what it felt like to have control over my emotions. Now my mood cycles faster than a wind turbine in the midst of a tornado.

Research

My "research" has been life experience. I have not had to pursue additional research, because I am the point person in my story. Rather, shall I clarify and say I am the main point person. Most stories told include more than just one person, and my story is no exception. In fact, I am one of two main characters in my story.

Story for the Gothic at Heart

The event I am going to write about is currently unfolding, but originates back to my freshman year. There are many connections between this and the Gothic, none more so evident than misery and loneliness. -Wait, but Mark, why do you not work to change your situation? If you do not like the situation you are in, there is always something you can do to change it. Great question, while I experience self loathing on the daily, I have also experienced something that is difficult to describe. This "feeling" is a mixture of joy, comfort, warmth, and trust. And it is this feeling that visits me every so often, that keeps me steadfast.-

With my aforementioned reflecting, I finally feel ready to begin writing. I have even recently talked to some of my friends about what action to take, if any, with regard to my situation. So far, the consensus is to wait. I guess carpe diem can take a backseat to my wishful thinking.

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Please enjoy the music selection I included for you to listen to while viewing my blog. Each song represents a post I have added, mirroring the mood and impact of it. Unfortunately, as I continually add posts, the music is subsequently added next, so the first song that will play is based off of the first post I added.

1. The first song I chose, My Soul, Your Beats, was added to compliment the fact that "More Than Just a Mouthful" was my first post. The song is the opening song to the anime: Angel Beats.

2. Second, you will notice, Daisy, which is a song played in Kyoukai no Kanata. This anime is a high school adventure/drama, and this song captures the positivity held within the show, just like the picture I included represents a very fond memory I treasure.

3. My most recent addition, Departures, was chosen because of the English translation of the lyrics. It gives a bit of a window as to what I will be writing about for my gothic-related story. To view the English translated lyrics, click here.

4. The Black Cauldron, while a kid's movie, deals with ideas far darker than what the average kid thinks about. Darker Than Black (the anime this song comes from) seems innocent at first glance as an animated show, however as the title suggests, there is a much darker side.

5. Sakura Kiss is the song I chose to reflect the second installment (check-in) in my challenge prompt. Since my challenge revolves around the wishful thinking that maybe I found love (then relating it back to the Gothic, because its a yes/no type of thing), the nature of this song sums up my feelings in 1 minute and 26 seconds.

6. The theme I thought I would write about- family, turned out to be the topic I didn't write about. But, the show this song comes from, Clannad, revolves around the idea of family better than the Earth revolves around the sun. A solid pick for: Proposal, Only the Beginnings.

7. This is a bit of a stretch. One of the main characters in the anime this song comes from, happens to run into various people who are alone and need help, so they form a makeshift family through a shared loneliness.

8. Sword Art Online, the anime Crossing Field is featured in, is first a great anime, but also has a great adventure plot. The Modern Frontier could not be seen better anywhere than in this show.

9. I have known for awhile I was going to use this song to mirror my last challenge check-in: Requiem of the Masochist 3.0. This is one of my favorite songs of all time from an anime, and arguably does the best job at mirroring its intended post.